A Princess in the Making...

Monday, May 16, 2005

Sometimes, living is just a pain.. =(

We've been going around the various wards to read patients' case notes.. It's kind of sad to see ppl being tormented by diff diseases and their complications.. We've seen a HIV patient suffering from several other illnesses and is extremely pale and weak.. There are many with diabetes who had lost their sight, had their toes or feet or entire leg amputated and are still battling their illnesses.. There are the elderly patients who are unable to speak or carry out the activities of daily living and just lie in bed all the time.. There are others who get one disease after another, one complication after another, have one operation done after another, but are still in bad shape.. =( In short, it's a very sad scenario for patients who are suffering.. Sometimes, there's really nothing medicine can do to help..

If u have a healthy body, cherish it. We may not realise it, but there are so many ppl out there who are less fortunate than us..

Recently, i realised that i kept getting bruises though i did not knock into anything in my conscious state.. Out of no reason, one or two would appear on my arms or knees.. I wonder if i have a bleeding disorder like hemophilia or von Willebrand disease.. Or maybe i did knock myself when i was asleep.. Going to the doctor is a no-no! now cos suddenly, i'm scared of seeing one.. I'm not ready to know what's wrong yet.. shall wait and observe for a while more.. Maybe it's not a problem at all.. =p

Anw, I always tell simon to rem this.. If i ever have to shave my head for a brain surgery, i'll rather die.. If i ever have to undergo chemotherapy for cancer treatment, i'll rather die.. cos i can't imagine waking up and seeing myself without my long hair.. I think i'll go crazy! Yes, in simon's words, i'm a vainpot who wants beauty rather than life.. haha..

*grace* living in fantasy @
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